m tired- i keep waking up at the same time efurry nyaight and cant go bacc two sleps

efurrything feels pointless and if im not feelin depurressed and apathetic, i feel anxious...... my therapist isnt really helping meowch and i feel like im just throwing money away that i need fur hrt n stuff tbh

i keep wondering too, if anyone really wants mew around or if they just keep me around beclaws im furriends with eve/echomori/the nefurmeowre system so they feel obligated two like its some kinda two in one deal

am i even plural at all.......  i feel like a dumb stupid faker, pie tells me that hes real n here but maybe im the one that isnt real

bweehh tired..  n nauseous.. hav my doggo brownie in bed with mew rn but I just feel awful n sick

( tw fur venty negative existential stuff )