welcome two the courtroom!

sleeeeepy
too lazy two change the color of my text anymeowre

but anyways i Do Not(tm) feel ready fur twoday i gotta go two the doctor's office by bus all alone fur my weekly testosterone shot
i asked kathy (my ""mom"") two drive me there n bacc but she says shes gotta take care of nova (my brother) since his ED is getting Really Bad(tm)
i mean even if she didnt have two watch nova i doubt she'd drive me there
and she wont let me take an uber either so. bus is literally my only option beclaws its 30 mewnutes away
she and saman (""dad"") put us in this weird limbo where they say they suppurrt mew and nova but actually they dont really care and dont suppurrt or help either of us with anything transition related (as well as secretly misgendering us behind our backs when they think we arent listening and making the excuse that its too hard for them even though we've been out for 4-5 years nyaow)
honestly tho i dont really care anymeowre
im just kinda bothered that i hav two go there n bacc in the cold, which.... will purrobably definitely make my chronic pain flare up, n then ill hav two spend the week recovering booo

on the bright side i asked my doctor two teach me how two do the injections mewself so hopefully i wont hav two keep going there and spending weeks and weeks being exhausted and in pain again!!
honestly efur since i joined dreamwidth ive been wanting two work on my neocities site again! i wanna hav a lil corner of the internet two call my own!!
mmy brain feels like its efurrywhere (/pos) i wanna do web design fur nobody but mewself (i mean i would help n stuff if someone asked ofc), i wanna make a visual novel and tell a huge story based off the worlds in my dreams and imeowgination, i wanna play gaems and watch all those shows that i say ill watch but nefur do, i wanna draw, i wanna write, i wanna strem, i wanna do efurrything!!!!!!!!!
and fur once it feels pawssible beclaws of the new meds im on :D
ofc i still hav two pick and choose what two spend my spoons on (spoon theory) but i hav a few meowre spoons each day nyaow thamkfully :3

i will nyaow go slepey and purrepare mewself fur the Arduous Journey(tm) ahead of mew twoday!! i hope yew all hav a nyaice day twoday i love yew guys <3